I'm done!
The national exam grades came out today. I'm pretty cheerful with my results, considering last year's were downright terrible. I had the highest score in the entire school on my Portuguese exam, so I'm actually pondering applying for a course in Cultural Studies instead of Design. I know I'm an art student and I'll probably be missing on History lessons when comparing myself to other students (who have graduated in the Social Studies area) but maybe I'd be able to keep up by studying a lot on my own.
I don't know. But I've talked to my teacher on the phone and he reassured my uncertainties about my talent or lack thereof in the literary/social studies field. I'd probably have a better chance of getting a job if I graduated in Cultural Studies, but I'm an artist as well as a writer.

I still have to think a lot about this. I'll apply for both courses, that's for sure, and if I get accepted into both... Well, I'll decide by then.

On another note, my dad bought me a new Wii, since mine went insane overnight, and a new scanner/printer.
I'm in love with the damn thing. Not just because it's all black and glossy and pretty, but the quality is much much better. For the first time in my life, my scanner doesn't kill the colours:

http://Alessa-K.deviantart.com/art/Kael-Chibi-128499942 <- A chibi Kael

http://Alessa-K.deviantart.com/art/Vinnie-128426533 <- A new character of mine, Vincent.

My old scanner was so bad I had to open every single scan in Photoshop and "Overlay" the hell out of them until the colours looked at least decent.

The only thing bringing me down a little is the fact that I had to go and blow my allowance on new earphones and a USB hub (because mine can't handle anything else being plugged into it). I was trying to save 500€ to buy a Wacom Intuos4 before going on holiday, but the way things are going I won't be able to. That's why I'm accepting commissions now, but no one will ever want them, so I'm kind of stuck here.

Oh, I almost forgot! The school concert was on Sunday, 28th of June. I know, I know, but I just haven't felt like talking about it lately, mainly because of some bumps in the road I've been hitting.
It went well, I suppose. I had to sing the second verse from What a Wonderful World on my own, and according to other people's remarks, I did pretty well. I was so nervous I could have thrown up right there during rehearsals, but I was strangely calm during the performance. It's always easier to just do it than when you're preparing for it.
It's addictive though! I really, really want to sing on a stage again. I was invited by my music teacher to go back to the school's music group next year when I'm attending University, so if I have the time, I'll definitely be there.

I'm no good for anyone.
If the love of my life were to appear right before me, he wouldn't fall for me. There are so many single girls out there and all of them are better than me. No one would ever prefer me to them, especially not the person I happen to fall in love with.

I don't want to be alone forever, but I suppose that's me.

I can't pretend any longer. I can't just go about ignoring it anymore and telling everyone I'm okay and showing them a huge smile and holding them when they cry.
I have a concert coming up on Sunday. I have to sing the third verse of a song solo so I'm a nervous wreck. I haven't been fine lately considering my music teacher has been picking on me and yelling at me in front of the orchestra and if you add my self-esteem (or lack thereof) to the equation... Well, you know what I mean.
Things are not at all okay.
Especially considering that I've been hiding my own problems at home, which have been kicking me down every single day, but I've been putting on a big smile nonetheless.
The fact is, my father has been rising through the various ranks of his work. He's currently VP of an international consulting company, AT Kearney, which means he's in charge of the whole Portuguese and Spanish branches (meaning he goes back and forth between our city and Madrid all the time, so I barely see him anymore). Maybe it's because of this, I don't know, but he's become very arrogant and full of himself lately. He acts as if his word is law in this house even though he's never here and mother is. I love my dad, I really do, he's a kind man at heart and he acts like a little kid sometimes which makes him adorable... But I can't take this anymore. He always reacts in the worst way possible and ALWAYS blames my mother for anything that may happen inside our outside our home... And he makes every little problem seem like the end of the world, all the while trying to make my mother and I feel like shit. He's a wonderful man when he's on his bright side, but... Lately I haven't seen much of it.
But the real problem is the arguments. Whenever I come home and I see his suitcase near the door, instead of getting happy, I shiver. Because if my dad is home it means my parents are arguing. They argue about everything, they insult each other, yell at the top of their lungs and I just stand there watching. And when they're done, dad goes to bed without saying a word and mom comes complaining to me. And she's usually right but I know I can't say a thing.

Honestly, I wish they'd just split up. It'd be a lot easier on all of us, especially my mom who says she doesn't feel anything anymore, and doesn't even bother to care about anything.
I know I'm the child so I'm supposed to be neutral, but I just think this is unfair on me. I just got through the disappointment of being rejected from all three chances I had to fulfill my dream, I haven't recovered from losing my best friend to the laws of nature, and I'm so nervous about Sunday I could kill myself with tranquilizers. This has been going on for months, I think probably more than a year though now it's no longer soft, it's downright unbearable, and I just wish it would stop.


Sorry for the long rant... I needed to vent and no one's available.

I need some. I have zero faith in a sunny destiny being in store for me, seeing as I was praying for a good year (since it is my final year in high school, I wanted to go out with a bang), but I've been bombarded with bad luck ever since day one. My dog died, my dreams of going to London died in front of me, people I like started to hate me and I had a crush, yet again, on the wrong person.

Maybe it's something biological. Maybe something's wrong with me, maybe I was born with a bad luck gene or something. Whatever it is, it's unfair.
And it annoys me (to the extent of wanting to bash people's heads in) that I try my best to help everyone and to be there for everyone and their problems... And when I do complain, which I rarely do because I don't like to talk about my problems (it reminds me of them), I get slapped in the face with bad attitudes and selfishness.

Do I deserve this? Honestly?
I don't know. But I'm headed for a clean start in college. God knows if it'll be worse, even.


I'm totally addicted to CSI New York and Criminal Minds. Please, everyone, find me pictures to fangirl over. I'm going for both Reid and Rossi in Criminal Minds, and Sid and Adam in CSI.
Why do I go for the old guys?
Btw, Joe Mantegna is so nice it gives me a sugar high. Interviews!

After discussing it for quite a while with myself and my other self, I finally decided to start a blog in portuguese.
This does not mean, however, that I will stop posting in LJ.

http://anjosdovazio.blogspot.com/

If you understand the language, please take some time to visit it, it would mean a lot to me.
This does not mean, however, that I will stop posting in LJ.

Thank you.

Replying to yunie_sigh, who said Baccano, Spiral and K-On.

RULES: Comment and I'll LJ stalk you to find THREE FANDOMS you apparently love. And then you answer these questions about them!

01: What got you into this fandom in the first place?
02: Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
03: Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc.?
04: Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
05: Do you think that more people should get into this fandom?


01.

Baccano: I don't remember where but I saw an ad for the anime somewhere online. Nessi and I decided to watch it together whenever an episode came out. It's a mafia story in the 1930s with immortal people, so you can tell it's completely my kind of thing~
Spiral: I must've been what, 13? I don't remember why I started watching it, but I watched the entire series in a week, and then rewatched it a few times. The only reason Baccano tops Spiral for being my favourite series ever is that I like the manga better. I think what got me stuck to Spiral was the storyline and the cases Ayumu had to solve, everything was quite elaborate and allowed me to practice my own logic skills.
K-On: MY LIFELONG DREAM IS TO BE PART OF A BAND. THIS IS A SHOW ABOUT A GIRL BAND AND THE ORDINARY LIVES OF GIRLS IN HIGHSCHOOL. What's not to love? x3 I actually started watching K-On because a friend told me to try it xD

02.

Baccano: Definitely. I mean, when I'm older I won't be paying much attention to it anymore but I'll definitely rewatch the series sometime this year when I have the time to. I love it to death.
Spiral: Of course! How can I move on? With all the silly self-insertion ideas I have in my head, I can't let go of Spiral. I love it too much and I have a past with it xD
K-On: I can't say for sure. I've only been into K-On for a short time, so until I catch up with the episodes I've been missing, I can't say.

03.

Baccano: 14 and 15. Why? GRAHAM! <3 He appears in episode 14 and there's the epic Graham vs Claire fight in episode 15 - definitely favourite scene in the whole series.
Spiral: The episode when Kanone kidnaps Madoka... and Volumes 6-9 (Kanone vs Blade Children 8D)
K-On: So far, their concert at the school festival. Fluffy clothes ;~;

04.

Baccano: Graphics XD
Spiral: No ;~; Used to make graphics though!
K-On: No ;x;

05.

Baccano: NO BECAUSE THEN IT WOULDN'T BE COOL ANYMORE D8<
Spiral: Yes! MAYBE THEN THE MANGA WOULD BE UPDATED MORE OFTEN.
K-On: No >: I like it the way it is without hundreds of lolicon perverts posting disgusting stuff on 4chan.

I have a big class.

LOL I'M SUCH A NINJA. I'M LIKE WALDO ON THIS PHOTO.
You win a prize if you spot me.

I tend to see life like a book: the prologue starts when you are born, your first day of school is the first paragraph of chapter one, then you graduate and chapter two describes your college days. Some people don't have a chapter three because they don't go to university, so chapter two is adulthood and working years for them. Chapter four, the final chapter, tells of our last days of old age on earth, and the memories of those we left behind are summed up in the Epilogue.

Tomorrow I'm turning the final page of chapter one - yes, that's right, I'm graduating from high school.
I can't say I've lived enough to declare these the best years of my life, but I can't deny that they were great. There were more than enough moments of indecision, of sadness, I was hurt, I had arguments, I was betrayed, I made mistakes, I lost more than I was prepared to and had to make choices I'm not sure I was meant to. But there were fun times, good movies, true friends, kind words, private jokes... I shared a lot with a lot of people. I changed schools twice and I have been lucky enough to keep friends from all of them close to me. I had my first, though unrequited, love, and will now have to say goodbye to a growing second though its impossibility makes it not so hard to part with.

I will never forget you, any of you. I will never forget these years, these days. I will never forget anything about any of you, friends or teachers. Even if I never see some of you again, which I hope won't happen, I will cherish these memories forever in the depths of my heart and think about them every day before I go to sleep. You will all be in my dreams for the rest of my days.
Thank you, everyone. I love you.


I can't say I'm confident with this change, though. Truth be told, I'm terrified. I'm not pretty at all and I can be very annoying at times, so I'm very worried about people not liking me in college. I don't even know if I'll make it to college because of my grades... But I'm terrified I won't make any friends. And I'm scared of failing too - failing at college, failing at life, being one of the worst, being left behind... I don't want to lose. I'll try hard not to lose to anyone or anything and especially not to lose myself in the process... But the times ahead are foggy and no one can say for sure what will happen. I'll keep my expectations low enough to be happy and feel lucky with whatever happens to me starting September.

Wish me luck, everyone ♥

Hello everyone...

I seem to have been regaining my sanity little by little over the past few days. Though I'm not very emotionally stable, I'm starting to hang in there... I hope.
The truth is, my dog died on the past Monday, 18th of May. To me she wasn't just a dog - she was, strangely, my best friend. She stayed by my side at all times for twelve long years. She was always the only one who never judged me and always tried to cheer me up, cried when I left home, always slept near me when I was busy doing something else, licked my hand when I was sick or crying and provided me with unconditional love, support and loyalty. Now, I don't know how to live without her... For the first time, I am actually home alone, and it scares me that she isn't going to crawl out from under the cupboard and into her bed next to my desk. It still hasn't settled in my head that she's buried outside in my garden, under the shade of her favourite tree...
I miss you so much. I know you're not coming back but please know that no other dog will ever replace you. You were my sister for twelve years and you will always remain as my sister in my heart and my memory.

I had a tachycardia on Friday. If it weren't for my teacher something really bad could have happened to me but I'm very grateful to him for his help. I hope it never happens again, I was really scared... My heart was beating so fast, I couldn't move, my whole body was shaking and I couldn't breathe. I took almost an hour to calm myself down... My heart rate was 159, I think, and that's a lot since mine is usually on the low side ( around 80 or 90 ). I'm okay now though.

I went to an Andrew Bird concert today, it was beautiful and inspiring. I was lucky enough to catch him after the concert and get him to sign my Fitz and Dizzyspells EP...

Gah, I think I'm finally liking someone (I won't say in love because it's too powerful a word to just go around and use like it's nothing) after that guy in 10th grade, but it's even more impossible so I'll just watch him from afar...

I hope you're all okay, drop me a note or something on Twitter or DA or whatever.

yunie_sigh, please hang in there. You know I'll always be here for you no matter what so don't be afraid to complain or talk about your problems to me. I'll always hear you out and try to help you to the best of my abilities... I hope you find your guiding light and decide on the path you feel is right. I'll be here to help you all the way to the end.

I am unsure about my future, my life, myself. I don't know if the way I'm heading is what I want, or if it's the right way. What is the right way? And what do I really want? I've been so confused lately I barely know who I am anymore. The only thing I still know is who loves me and who doesn't... And you probably think it's more than enough, but to me it isn't. I'm a bit individualistic, so I really need to know who I am, what I want and where I'm headed. I need to be in control of myself and my situation, but it seems I've been relying too much on the term 'fate' lately.
I find myself thinking about things I shouldn't, and I can't really explain how and why I got there. I'm so young, I should be superficial and airheaded, jump around talking about boys and clothes on sale... But even though I'm an idealist and a romantic, I can't bring myself to act like everyone else. If I do, it's only on the outside... In the inside, I'm thinking too much and too fast for my own sake.

I just need a lot of answers that I probably wouldn't understand if they were given to me right now.
Everything is just so confusing... I don't know what to do.

I didn't make it.
Again.

Am I that big a failure...?

I love this song, it's so romantic. I never thought I'd like the new Maroon 5 CD but apparently I love it.

Also, thinking about a very confusing love-related issue...
And reading poetry:


Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm;
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.

Soul and body have no bounds:
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant enchanted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grave the vision Venus sends
Of supernatural sympathy,
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
Among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermit's carnal ecstasy.

Certainty, fidelity
On the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell
And fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry:
Every farthing of the cost,
All the dreaded cards foretell,
Shall be paid, but from this night
Not a whisper, not a thought,
Not a kiss nor look be lost.

Beauty, midnight, vision dies:
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
Such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless,
Find our mortal world enough;
Noons of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary powers,
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love.

- Lullaby, W. H. Auden

I had such a good day and now I'm feeling all emo.
I had my first actual driving lesson today, my teacher made me drive around the block. I was really glad I didn't let the car shut down. And I didn't hit anything, so that's a plus. Still, I was horribly nervous and my leg was shaking the whole time.

I went out for lunch with my friends, gave Mia a guy's phone number and we spent a few hours messaging him. Then she drove me to school so I could attend my music class.

I have a Twitter account: http://www.twitter.com/MissAer
Follow me please.

Thank you for listening to me yunie_sigh. Really.
Also, I loved your house and OH MY GOD your bed. I want your bed.
And I'm happy I got to clean your windows~ And your mom is awesome, she's a sweetheart and I adored her.

Went to visit yunie_sigh in her new home. It's very cozy and pretty even though it's still messy from moving. I was really happy that her mother and her didn't mind having me there though I'm still worried I might have been a bother...

A meme from yunie_sigh

• Post these rules before you give your facts.
• List 10 random facts about yourself.
• At the end of your post, tag 10 people and list their names. I hate tagging people!

1. Even though I act really chirpy and comical, deep down I rarely actually feel that way. When I'm alone I'm always thinking about how I've never been in a relationship and I get really sad all the time.
2. I feel really lonely all the time even though I know I have friends who love me.
3. I get really happy when people say they like me. I have no self-esteem so it means a lot to me that someone actually likes me.
4. I like shopping for clothes and makeup. I'm not appearance-centered, but I like combining different tones of lipstick with eyeliner colors. It's fun and it helps, though I don't wear tons of makeup like most girls.
5. I love animals. If I could I would spend my whole life surrounded with all kinds of animals and I definitely think I am at my most gentle and vulnerable state when I am with any kind of animal.
6. I'm ugly. That's why I wear eyeliner. I'm really ugly and I hide behind my personality a lot.
7. I honestly believe I'm a good, loyal friend and that sometimes I'm not treated as I deserve to be. But I'm too gullible and too nice to stand up for myself and, most of all, I'm afraid people will hate me if I do.
8. I genuinely like to help people. I get really happy if I find out I was the one to put a smile on someone's face and it fills me up inside.
9. All I really want is to fall in love with someone and have that person love me back.
10. I have an enormous crush on someone and only a few people know about it, because if everyone found it would be a disaster...

I just saw a horror movie called The Strangers. It was a really good movie, had its frightening moments, but it was left totally unexplained and I'm pissed off at it for that. I need a GOOD EXPLANATION, damn it! I don't like movies that leave questions unanswered. Still, I loved the use of country songs for the mood of the movie and that scene when the LP is scratched and the same second of the song keeps playing over and over.

Also, I finally attended 7 driver's code lessons, which means I can now go and use the simulators. I already booked the five hours I need to progress to the actual driving lessons. I'm so scared. I'm a huge klutz and an airhead so I'll probably crash the car or ram it into a wall or something.

Finally, a very very important note:
I'm stupid.
I'm stupid stupid stupid stupid. I'm praying to myself this will wash over eventually or else I'll find myself waiting for my 18th birthday so I can stalk someone.
*HEADDESKS*

Okay, a big difference from this morning... I'm feeling a lot better. Not excellent but quite a lot better. I'm going to give it my all in this one shot and if I don't succeed, I'll just try again next year.

I guess I just have to keep my head up and do my best at everything.

I'm in class right now with nothing better to do than post something. I don't know what's wrong with me, even though I had such a great day yesterday things took a turn for the worse just before I went to bed. I'm not going to complain about my parents not understanding me, like most teenagers do, but I will say that despite them always being nice to me, it doesn't give them the right to call me all kinds of shit when they want to. Even if they do have the right to, I don't like it, and I am allowed to not like it.
Though apparently I'm not allowed to have a deferring opinion or to respond to the insults in any way because that would make me "rude and disrespectful". And when I just nod and bow my head, I'm accused of being "a failure and a coward", and "having no will or spine".
I don't get it. What is it that is being asked of me?!
True, I've been having my doubts lately. Not about going to London, but about my ability to succeed if I go there straight away. Honestly, I'm not that good, and if I do make it in right now I doubt I'll be happy; if I wasn't accepted in the first round, it means at least most of the people there are about ten times better than me - so shouldn't I go in with some kind of previous preparation? I tried explaining this to them, but I got a verbal slap in the face. What should I say? What should I do? I just don't know anymore, whether to please myself or others and if I'm stepping into something I'll be unable to cope with. More than insecure, I'm terrified of failing. It is a worse fate than being lonely.
Ironically, failure is something I apparently excel at.
Maybe I am just a failure and a coward.

And I have another problem... on a rather strange level.
The first boy I ever liked was two years ago, in 10th grade, when I was 15. Consequently, I've never had an actual physical relationship with anyone - not because I didn't like anyone (I didn't, but I was ready to) but because I am probably impossible to like. Most people like me and cherish me as a friend but the truth is my faults drown my qualities completely, so I'll probably end up a spinster with a house full of cats. Though I don't believe in destiny, I'm probably destined to be alone and this thought scares me to death, as much as the idea of failure. Probably even more. In all honesty, I'm too much of a hopeless and idealistic romantic; I dream of a big, problem-topping, knight-in-shining-armor love. That isn't real anymore and it definitely won't be real for me. Still, I expected after liking someone for the first time it would be easier for me to like someone else again. True, I had a crush on a friend of mine for some time, but it wasn't the same. And now I've been debating with myself because of a rising affection that I can't possibly show or tell anyone about because it's stupid. Just stupid.
So so stupid.

Am I bound to end up a failure? And alone?
I just don't know what to do anymore...
Argh. Emo post is emo. I'll post something over this tomorrow or something...

P.S.
Recorded myself singing. You can make fun of me if you'd like - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oasQkIahXTw

Mommy, I will definitely protect you.
Even though I may not always be here, I will try really hard.
I will try as hard as I can to be able to help you up when you fall and to heal you if you get hurt.

I promise never to leave you.

I'm not at all in a good mood right now even though he just came and apologized (and ended up finding another thing to throw at my face and make himself look like the victim).

stolen from yunie_sigh

Centaur:
[ ] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[x] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[x] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[x] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[ ] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[x] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[ ] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[ ] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 4

Elf:
[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips (be honest!).
[x] You are very intelligent.
[ ] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[x] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[x] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[x] You look very young for your age. (People sometimes say I look like I'm in 9th grade.)
[x] You rarely get sick.
[ ] You are a very hard worker.
[x] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 6

Fairy:
[ ] You are happy a lot of the time.
[ ] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[x] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[ ] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[ ] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 6

Gnome/Dwarf:
[x] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[ ] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[x] You are short for your age.
[x] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[x] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[ ] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[x] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[ ] You have a short temper.
Total: 6

Harpy/Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[ ] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[ ] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[x] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[ ] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 4

Mermaid:
[x] You love the beach more so because of the water than the shore itself.
[ ] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[ ] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[ ] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[x] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[x] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[x] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps (if you haven't already), you will work to stop that.
[x] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 7

Vampire:
[x] You're a night person.
[ ] You have a fascination with blood.
[x] You are extremely pale. (There are days when I'm actually gray.)
[ ] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[x] You are not religious at all.
[ ] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[x] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[x] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.
[x] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[ ] You don't like sharp objects near you.
[ ] you sparkle in the sunlight
Total: 6

Werewolf:
[x] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[ ] You have a lot of body hair.
[x] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[x] You lack self control.
[x] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[x] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[x] You like to be alone.
[x] You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it.
[ ] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.
Total: 7

Wizard/Witch:
[ ] You love chemistry.
[x] You are intuitive and good at analyzing people, to the point that people seriously or jokingly say you're psychic.
[x] The most amazing supernatural power to you is controlling the elements.
[x] You are a nature lover.
[x] You have a strong sense of responsibility (you use your talents positively)
[x] You spent a lot of time alone.
[x] You usually hang around with a certain animal all the time when you feel lonely.
[x] You are spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
[x] Cooking is one of your favorite things to do.
[x] You enjoy learning about Wicca and the occult.
Total: 9

Zombie:
[x] You are pale.
[ ] You are hungry a lot.
[x] Many activities you do every day make you feel mindless, or like a drone.
[x] Most of the time you or a part of you is cold.
[ ] You love to eat meat.
[ ] You would resort to cannibalism if that was the only source of food.
[x] You make grunts and moans a lot (such as when you're tired, are annoyed, etc.).
[x] You enjoy learning about psychology because you study the brain.
[x] You usually walk slow.
[ ] You are not afraid of seeing a lot of blood or getting a lot of blood on yourself.
Total: 6

I'm a witchweremermaid!

I bought a guitar today. Not an actually electric one, but halfway through electric and acoustic. It's all black and glossy and beautiful. I don't really know how to play it yet, but I've promised myself that I'd learn. I love singing, one of my dreams is to be able to sing in a bar or something, and since I suck at the piano now (I used to be really good at it) I might as well try the guitar. I'd like to be able to accompany my own voice with an instrument, just in case... Neves is going to help me learn... I hope I can play as well as him someday (haha fat chance).

I still haven't been able to get my card to work in internet shopping. It's starting to get on my nerves, honestly. I think Monday I'll head out to the bank agency and try to activate it.

Been making 07 Ghost icons. It's so much fun taking screencaps~ If any of you have Ayanami screencaps, send them to me 8|

I'm drawing a blank here. I'll update when I find something worthy to write about xD